In 4 weeks I will be rocking the stage at Fitness Atlantic in the transformation division. Wow! I can't believe I am at the 4 weeks out mark already. The time really has flown by. I am full of butterflies trying to go with the flow. Starting now is where my anxiety disorder is really going to start testing me and I won't let it win. I can't let it win. Throughout this weight loss and fitness journey I have learned that I need to get comfortable with being uncomfortable because nothing great ever comes from playing it safe in your comfort zone. I am 29 days out from doing something that I never thought I would ever be able to do or would even dream about doing just 5 years ago. Standing on a stage in a tiny bikini in front of hundreds of people strutting my stuff and showcasing what I have worked so hard to achieve for the past 4 years. It all seems surreal. I am slowly becoming that person I never thought I could be with anxiety... anxiety so severe that it is officially diagnosed a disorder and have almost claimed my life multiple times. I can't believe this is me and that I am going to do this. My mind is absolutely blown right now.
It's been a very tough road so far to say the least. While I have been trying to enjoy the journey, certain things and situations have been making that very difficult for me and I will definitely speak more on that in a future post talking about my prep experience as a whole and not just parts of it as I go along.
3.29.17 - I FINALLY BROKE THE SCALE PLATEAU!!!!!
For those of you that may be new to my journey and story, let me fill you in on something really quick. Last year I finally hit that wall. I plateaued after a 143 lb weight loss and I decided to up my calories from my weight loss calories to let my metabolism rest for awhile. I was getting very little results to no results when I looked in the mirror and none on the scale either. I decided try IIFYM (if it fits your macros) flexible dieting. The scale was still maintaining between 137 lb and 143 lbs - higher on days I was bloated and carrying a lot of water weight), but I started seeing results again in the mirror, which made me happy, but the scale still didn't budge and it just wouldn't drop below 137 for the life of me, but I eventually became okay with that because I know it can be a great tool to rely on during weight loss and it can help you gain knowledge about your body's patterns, etc. but sometimes it doesn't tell the whole story. I ditched the scale and only checked every now and then to learn and keep myself informed about what range my weight liked to stay between. I had to bring back the scale for prep and unfortunately still struggled with the scale EVEN THOUGH I was seeing results and losing fat. Scale didn't budge much through this prep so far (6 lbs from my starting weight) and it was very up and down with numbers, so I stopped letting it stress me out. I stopped letting a lot of things and people stress me out and I have been adopting the "it is what it is" mentality. Look what happened this morning?! I busted that scale plateau! I am BELOW 137! 😱 I am at my lowest weight that I have ever been at in my adult life. It doesn't feel as good as I thought it would, but I am proud to say that I did it. I care about the results I'm seeing with my body when I look in the mirror... Not on the scale. It is what it is 😉
I had a weigh in and check in today and the scale is FINALLY moving!! Not only is it moving, but it's hauling ass with a downward trend! Seriously!! It's been crazy.
Friday weigh in and check in with coach. The scale is STILL moving this week after Wednesday's plateau breaking news. Not only did I bust that scale plateau... I blew it up! 💥💥 I still wanna throw the damn thing away though 😂 This just goes to show you though... You never want to give up and quit because you aren't seeing results. I don't care if you've been dealing with a plateau for over a year (I got close to a year). Keep going because it will pick up again and when it does it usually comes full force! #firemeetgasoline #huffnpufftobuffntough #teamhuffnpufftobuffntough
Throughout this whole prep the scale has been very stubborn. The numbers were up and down on the scale and fluctuating quite a bit. However, I did notice a certain pattern that my body was taking. I noticed that right before I got my period, my weight would always go up 2.6 lbs in water weight followed by at least a 3 lb loss afterwards within 2 weeks. That pattern continued up until recently when I ended up gaining 2.4 lbs, which had nothing to do with a menstrual cycle weight gain. I started getting severe bloating and digestive issues and things were slowing down. A simple detox and colon cleanse took care of that. I've been bloated quite a bit throughout this process. Sometimes it lasted for days and other times it lasted for at least a week at a time. However, the pattern did continue with at least a 3 lb loss 2 weeks after my period.
In other news...
I just got word that my suit designer is starting the designing process of my suit this weekend! I can't wait to see my theme and idea come to life and to make what will hopefully be amazing memories in my suit.
I have been missing my protein bars and regular protein shakes like crazy! The only protein shakes I have been allowed to have during this prep are casein protein shakes as my last meal of the day before bedtime, but those are just as good. I got a Now Sports 300 watt personal blender a few months back and just started using it about a month and a half ago. I am so in love with this lightweight inexpensive blender! It makes blending my protein shakes so much easier and it definitely beats shaking them up in a shaker bottle or stirring them with a spoon. 😂
I've also been sippin' on that Now Green Kick green tea with sencha and matcha twice a day during my prep. This isn't the first time I've mentioned this amazing tea and it definitely won't be the last. I am proud to say that this tea has been an important essential in not only my weight loss journey, but now during my prep and journey to the stage.
My show info is posted on the lovely banners you see above and below. It's not a local show and I won't have many friends and family at this one, but I am extending the invite to all of you! So if any of you lovely peeps are in the area... come on out, show some support and say hi!
As we get closer and closer to show day, I will continue keeping you all updated!
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